On my quest for my own identity, and how that related to my writing, I wanted to talk to other female authors that I knew and get their take on the subject. The first, a good friend of mine, and fellow Blue Monkey Katie Cross. As an Indie author, Katie has leapt into a world I barely understand and found love, respect, and success. Author of Miss Mabel’s School for Girls, Katie is not only a writer that crafts beautifully, authentic characters, and thrilling plot lines, she is also a strong woman discovering herself and loving the journey.
Q: Tell me a little bit about your journey as a writer so far?
A: It’s wild, unexpected and vastly imperfect. Most days I’m madly in love with it, but sometimes I really loathe it.
Q: As an Indie/Self-published author, what are some of the challenges of identity that you face?
A: Owning myself as an author when people give me that raised-eyebrow-you-aren’t-really-what-you-say-you-are look. I write. I live in fantasy lands. I put my heart on the platter of publishing and it’s stabbed often. (It’s also petted too.) So I just keep going, because I am a writer, even if “they” don’t say so.
Q: Lets go back in time for a moment. Talk to me about the lies (about your identity) that followed you into your writing career?
A: My free spirit, definitely. I’ve grown up with a strong sense/need for adventure, and it translates into my writing. Sometimes the writing IS the adventure. I’ll also say that writing has made me discover a new identity. I was a pediatric RN before my voyage into publishing, and now I’ve flipped on a “businesswoman” light that I never knew was there. Frightening, somedays.
Q: How do you block out the lies and negative reviews that might make you question your worth?
A: Oh, it gets easier. At first they gutted me. REALLY gutted me. It felt like a personal rejection every time. Now, however, I get it. No reviewer sets out to harm me on a personal level really, and some people just don’t connect. Once I accepted that, it seemed pretty easy to just move on.
Q: As writers, our characters reflect us (some more than others), how do you think your belief’s about worth and identity shape your characters?
A: To an extreme point. My main girl, Bianca, is the girl I wish I could be. There are many parts of her that are me, of course, and many traits I’d love to snatch right out of her own free spirit and place in my own. She’s a wild girl at heart, just like me. I kind of like her that way. 🙂
Q: What questions about your own personal worth and identity still haunt you? Or maybe better put, what lies are you still working to unlearn?
A: I want to figure out how to remove shame as such a central figure in my thoughts. I often ask myself, “What would it be like to just let this shame go and see myself as God sees me?” I’m trying. It’s a pretty tough process, and I feel like I’m thrown on the rocks a lot, but there’s always a hand to pull me out.
Q: What advice would you share on worth and identity with others?
A: Just own who you are. Seriously. Once I realized that I loved being the mountain-climber-trail-runner-wild-haired-outdoors-child, then I fell into it and have never looked back. It seemed like the sooner I loved myself, the easier it seemed for everyone else.
Q: Any last thoughts?
A: Nothing except I have a mad crush on your for all these really awesome questions. Thanks for not asking me about my favorite color as an icebreaker. 🙂